It's been about 3 months. It started when I started to have problems, and eventually separated, with someone I once loved. He was twice my age, and a professor at my school. But this wasn't an issue with either of us. He was physically, emotionally, and intellectually, my ideal. We both felt this way. He asked me to marry him the first day, probably not very seriously, I said no, but it still meant a lot to me. But he couldn't be as open to me as I was to him, he told me he wished he could just fall in love with me, but he couldnt, because he was still grieving for a lost love. I fell in love with him I couldn't help it...although I knew it probably wasn't good. Now we've both moved to different cities and countries. I'm over him, in the sense that I no longer desire him. But it haunts my heart like nothing else. It's like a beautiful memory that hurts. I cut my beautiful hair, I'm unemployed, depressed and desparately want to escape! I feel like I'm wounded with no help in sight.
2006-07-24
03:08:03
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taravachine
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Mental Health