I am basically in love with one of my best friends. She is a girl and i am a guy, so there is no reason for me not to love her, except for the simple fact that her and I will never be an us.
In my current state, i will do anything to see her. Today, i made a crazy trip to New Brunswick at the mere possibility of seeing her. Because i am in New Brunswick, i am going to have to wake up at 4 in the morning and walk with my book bag, violin, and a suitcase to a train station i don't know how to get to so i can make it to my 9 am class at Rutgers Camden.
I would go through hell just to see her. This scares me. I don't want to be in love with someone who will never love me back. Its torture.
The mere possibility of seeing her that i was talking about earlier fell through. I was so looking forward to see her, that not being able to has left me extremely sad. I am sad in emotion, i am sad in state, and i am sad in mind.
I can't live like this. I want it to stop. Please make it stop.
2007-09-25
16:55:58
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crazcalm
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