I am a soldier in Iraq and recently received a red cross messafe that my mother had committed suicide. I went home and took care of all the details, being the next of kin, I didn't have much of a choice. I viewed her decomposed body, the pictures from the detectives of her hanging. All the while not shedding a tear, I was there but some how so detached from everything that was going on. My mother had suffered from mental illness, due to abuse in her childhood, and had attempted suicide before. Somehow though it was still a shock that she actually did it, she always reached out for help. Well I had to come back to finish my tour in Iraq, and that is when all emotions finally hit. I cried for days, have horrible nightmares(I had these at home too), sad as could be. I tried to go home but the doc here says I am fit for duty. So I suck it up and soldier on. Now I am so angry at everyone myself, my aunt's, my father, my husband. But not her, was when I first found out, it's not her fault!
2007-05-11
07:58:34
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