I lived with someone for 6 years and loved him deeply. He wanted us to 'experiment' sexually, in particular with another man (for me,not him, but while he was in the room). I eventually caved in and allowed it, but broke up with him soon afterwards because I couldn't cope with the self-disgust. It's been nearly a year and I am in another relationship, but I cannot forget this man and all the good things we had apart from his bizarre sexuality.
I am 46 and have had several relationships in my life, but had never experienced one where I felt my partner knew me as well as he did. I still ring him now and then, cry when sad songs come on the radio - all that crazy stuff.
I think I just need some other people to reinforce to me that I did the right thing so I can move on. None of my family or friends know why we split: they think I was cruel to have broken his heart just because they think I was bored. I can't tell them I broke my heart too, they will want to know why.
2007-09-14
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