I have tried more than 20 years for my marriage with my husband, but it doesn’t work very well and I have been suffered very much for years, so we finally broke up in 2005. As I feel guilty for leaving my husband and now especially, I am in a very difficult situation since I fell in love with an adorable man who I love very much in Nov.2005 in Albuquerque, NM. We had beautiful times together, but it turned upside down when my husband tried to kill himself. After that I came back to my husband in LA twice in Jan & April 2006 because I worried about he will kills himself again, but not because I will try to keep this marriage. Meanwhile I also lost my love - the man I love, because I didn't keep my words as I promised to divorce my husband. So, that's why I am in a miserable situation now.... I know I can't keep the marriage with my husband anymore and I will leave him again on some day, but I also worry about him very much. Since I came back to him is already over 4 months, I think he is getting better now and it's time for me to go. I will go to San Francisco to visit my best friends there and maybe will find a job and in order to get a divorce with my husband. Maybe it's better for me to do this when I separate from him. I have to do this for my boyfriend and also for myself. But I didn't do until now because I’m in hesitating: I still worry about my husband and my son (he is 22). I'm also afraid of being alone by myself. Should I have to go? Should I stay? What’s the future will be, in front of me? Is it possible for me to having back my boyfriend? What if not, and what can I do? Is it fair that I have to stay with my husband because of he will try to kill himself again? When I can’t love my husband again, should I have to go? What can I do if my husband will kill himself again? Does my son will get hurt very much if I leave him again, since I have to? But one thing I realize that I just can’t accept current situation any more because it is not fair for anyone. I really need some advice from Yahoo answers. Please help me!
2006-09-06
06:38:54
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Marilyn
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