I wake up thinking "I hate my life"
I left the one I love, because I knew I could not live with myself after having sex with another man. I couldn't tell him either, I couldn't break his heart... So, I told him we could not be together..I feel ashamed, I feel like a horrible person. Now, I'm with the other man, who I feel wants nothing but sex from me, but honestly I don't even care anymore... I no longer believe in "true love" just a bunch of guys wanting to get in your pants... Whatever though... It's not like I'm being used, if anything I'm using him..I'm using him for comfort, for affection, because I am such a mess that I hate to be alone... I hate my self, & I hate my life... I'm trying to be "optimistic" but it's like I can't, this pain inside of me, is holding me back from living right. I honestly could care less, whether I lived or died.
I need help...
My mom wont get my therapy though..
I guess she doesn't want people to think something about her..
2007-09-15
08:05:11
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Savanna A
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