Two years ago I escaped an emotionally and physically abusive marriage - divorced a year ago. Now he's trying to get custody of our children, so I'm back in court again. I was a stay-at-home mother - now I'm trying to start a career. Money is tight. Abusive X watches my every move. I struggle to rise above this, move on with things; I'm college educated, have/had many hobbies, talents, friends, interests, but every time I start to make progress, to get a plan in place, something outside of my control happens that knocks me down. Friends express amazement at my resiliance and how well I'm doing, considering, but I don't feel like I'm getting anywhere. The life I wanted for myself no longer seems an option (I'm 45). I've always made "sensible" life decisions for fear of failure if I tried to do what I really want. At the same time, the world seems full of possibilities that I have the talents to realize, but I feel lost on a treadmill to nowhere, haunted by fear and criticism. Ideas?
2007-11-30
12:57:54
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Melissa C
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