I wake up thinking "I hate my life"
I left the one I love, because I knew I could not live with myself after having sex with another man. I couldn't tell him either, I couldn't break his heart... So, I told him we could not be together..I feel ashamed, I feel like a horrible person. Now, I'm with the other man, who I feel wants nothing but sex from me, but honestly I don't even care anymore... I no longer believe in "true love" just a bunch of guys wanting to get in your pants... Whatever though... It's not like I'm being used, if anything I'm using him..I'm using him for comfort, for affection, because I am such a mess that I hate to be alone... I hate my self, & I hate my life... I'm trying to be "optimistic" but it's like I can't, this pain inside of me, is holding me back from living right. I honestly could care less, whether I lived or died.
I need help...
My mom wont get my therapy though..
I guess she doesn't want people to think something about her..
2007-09-15 08:05:11 · 6 answers · asked by Savanna A 2 in Social Science ➔ Psychology
I'm just looking for...anything.
The longer the answer, the better.
2007-09-15 08:06:40 · update #1
You know what? Everyone has bad times in thier life and do thing that they regret. The real key is being able to first and foremost, being able to forgive yourself and learn from your mistake. Its only human nature to err and in the process of doing so, we hurt the ones we love and are closest to. You could try to dedicate even just ten minutes a day for yourself and no one else. To be using someone for your own benefit is wrong. You need to dig deep down inside of yourself and ask what am I really looking for. Let me tell you and take it for what its worth. I care and would be glad to help you more if you needed. Otherwise I wouldn;t be spending my time typing this at work. Feel free to im me at deathbymonkeys69@yahoo.com if you want.
Don;t think that you are crazy or that there is someting wrong in your head. Believe me, I have worked in the Mental Health Field for over 5 years and know. You're not crazy, you're just going through a rough time right now and searching for resources to help you find a way out. That is an excellent step in the right direction.
2007-09-15 08:18:18 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
Some people define "insanity" as doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result.
If what you're doing now isn't "working" for you, you need to do something different. It really is as simple as that.
You're not in a good place right now. Sexual relationships are only complicating things for you. You've got too much on your plate right now to be adding additional stress to your life by staying with this guy. This relationship is systematically eroding your self esteem.
Step 1: end the current relationship.
When people feel "empty" and "lost", a lot of times, it's because they have a God-shaped hole in their lives. There is only one way to fill a God-shaped hole, and you're smart enough to figure out what that is. Jesus doesn't hold your mistakes against you. He just waits, arms open wide, ready to love you unconditionally.
Step 2: get into a great church.
If you hate yourself and hate your life, there is something psychologically amiss as well. If mom won't help you with getting into therapy, you're going to need to take matters into your own hands. Flip to the blue pages of your local phone book. Find listings for "community mental health centers".
Step 3: get yourself into therapy.
You CAN change your life. But like most other things in life which are worthwhile, it probably won't be easy.
It is, however, worth the effort.
You are worth the effort.
Hang in there,
~M~
2007-09-15 08:18:09 · answer #2 · answered by michele 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
from what i read i think the main reason you hate your life is because you dumped your first boyfriend , you say that you didnt want to break his heart ,but didn't you do that already when you said to him it's over ?! how can you get comfort and affection off of someone who uses you for sex(sooner or later he is going to find some else to play around with) ?and tell me how can you not believe in true love when you did find it with your ex?? you need to ask your self these questions
honesty is the best policy ,you sound like you are still hung up on your ex maybe you should confront him on why you broke up with him and explain everything to him and see how it goes on from there if he can find it in his heart to forgive you and wants to be with you then you will have someone to be with who really does love you ,if not then at least you will know that he isn't the one for you and you will be able to move on and the guy that you are with if he doesn't love you then let him go before he breaks whats left of your heart .
please note that your life is worth living i know finding true love(even though you don't believe in it right now) is apart of life just don't forget the other important parts like having friends people who truly care about you and persuing a good career if you can't get therapy then maybe you could talk to someone who you trust and who you know can help you out
^.^ i hope i helped
2007-09-15 08:51:37 · answer #3 · answered by mercy 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I'm having a hard time believing that you gave up a guy you loved because you cheated on him ... That just doesn't seem right ,, if you loved him , must have been along time ago , and he must have found someone else, Love does exist you know ,, it conquers all ,, you can forgive someone who is honest , facts can not be changed but , forgiveness is part of love , eather he didn't love you or you played around more then once and he had already forgiven you for the first offence , and if thats the case ,,, your behavior makes sence otherwise ,, tell him you love him and see if he'll forgive you ,,, be honest though , Anything is forgivable .
2007-09-15 08:39:16 · answer #4 · answered by darkcloud 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
you , and only you can change your life, first of all please do not hate yourself,you said you could not tell him that you had sex with another man, maybe if you did tell him the truth he will forgive you,you still love him, so give him the chance to decide if you should both be together or not. you sound such a caring person, and i think that you deserve a second chance. do not live in a life that you are not happy in. go to your doctor and get him to arrange therapy for you.it is your life ,not your mothers, i am sure she will stand by you. be brave ,face your worries. tell yourself that you are strong, i think you are optimistic, because you are asking for help. it takes courage to live. i will keep you in my prayers
2007-09-15 08:23:45 · answer #5 · answered by champagne 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Ohhh yess i could look up on the sky at night and that i could be so creeped out that i theory somebody will attack me and that i had to squash in with my friends or carry somebody's hand for risk-free practices.i think of I nonetheless do this nevertheless LOL
2016-11-14 12:46:39 · answer #6 · answered by weatherby 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋