okay this is crazy it wasn't about the rape.I was raped in July of this year ..But it has woke me up and left me shakier than ****. It reminded me of the dreams that I was having BEFORE the rape that I was being held down dy something I couldn't see, I didn't put much faith in that dream or what not. But after it happened I was like that was that dream, I even felt like I did during the attack the way I felt in my dream
I' not sure why or what I was doing but apparently it was something illegal. I can't remember that part. Jennifer and *her daughter* britney were in my dream as well as Eden*my daughter* . There is someone after jennifer and me. She picks me up at ork and tells me we have to go now, that there isn't alot of time. Eden and britney are both crying. She has time foe me to swing by my apartment and get some clothes. I can't take my animals. My lights on my tree everything looks like it should. This was so freaking real. I'm hurrying and throwing things in a bag. Wondering where my parents are where her husband is. How long I'm going to be gone what I should be taking.
This guy comes in *he looks really familiar I think he may be a customer at the video store* He tells me to get him a ******** forces me to..*That was really weird and didn't fit with the rest of the dream b/c I wasn't scared or alarmed*
He then tells me that he won't kill me but thta I can't escape, then he is gone And I go back to putting my clothes in a bag and grabbing what I don't want to forget.
I get back down to the car and am like wait my pictures, give me one more second. She says hurry. Eden starts screaming for me to not to go back. I give her a kiss and run back around the building. Before I make it to the steps to go upstairs. Its sounds like someone knocks really loud on the door, and my cheast hurts, there is alot of blood. And all I can hear is jennifer saying, "they found us we're all dead too"
I woke up sweating and shakey, maybe its nothing or maybe it has to do with the rape. But damnit even the dreams I have had about the actul thing haven't bothered me this bad. Usually a smoke will calm me down enough to relax but i've smoked three so far. I've checked my doors and **** everything locked upp. I'm so jumpy and all I can't stand to barely hear the keys clatter while I type.
Anyone have any ideas or want to analyze go right ahead...
2006-12-03
18:16:14
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