I want to change the akward relationship I have with my moms side of the family. I love them very much, but we have different views of the world. Whenever I visit them (once in a year or every two years), I completely lose who I am, I fall apart, get depressed, I stutter, I'm silent at times, I don't make sense, lose my confidence, feel and say unintelligent things, become blind, think about death. Why is that? When I'm home, I'm completely normal. I don't have any of these problems. I'm as happy as can be. Even now that I'm in college, I still feel like this. Why can't I get over it? They're into their tradition, I'm not. They believe in god, I don't. They probably think that since I'm majoring in music, I must be as stupid as hell. I don't want them to dislike me because of who I am, so I'll block them first. Please, don't advise me to see a psychologist.
Today they all called in to say "Happy Birthday" I love them, but I get this horrible feeling in my stomach when they all contact.
2006-12-25
15:46:16
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