I've had an eating disorder called ednos(eating disorder not otherwise specified). ok, so i've had it for 3 years now. i've maintained 90-95 lbs. for 2 years. I'm 5 feet tall. lately, i've been trying to overcome this, and i've tried many times and fauled. but this time, i seem to be making some good progress. but, i've gained 6 lbs in 3 days. and for me, that isn't cool. I have abused laxatives and i'm thinking maybe thats the problem, because now i have very bad constipation. I also used to starve myself and even made myself purge alot. i'm 100 lbs now, but i'm eating healthy. my ideal weigh for my age and height is 95 lbs. so i was never really underweight, but i still had an eating disorder. The problem is, i'm eating healthy now, and i'm still gaining weight. and i'm afraid that if i reach 105, i'm gonna freak and i'm might start doing all the things i was doing before and feel guilty again and hate myself. i'm scared. i don't want to be 105 again, i looked so fat.
I really want to know a way in which I can self recover, but still be 95 lbs. C’mon. if other people without an eating disorder and eating healthy can do it. Why can’t I? By the way, keep exercise out, I have school for 10 hours. 7:30-4:00. And I do workout for an hour after dinner and 15 minutes before. And no, it’s not muscle weight, muscle doesn’t jiggle or is 27 inches in diameter around my waist. I just want to be my ideal weight. And if I ask my doctor (who is fat), he will just say. Eat. And I am eating. Normal eating, even my friends noticed I’m eating normal again, well, I used to binge a lot and spit out my food on a napkin. Now I don’t. I don’t eat sweets, I don’t eat junk food, I don’t eat fast food…..yet I’m still gaining. And it’s coming pretty fast. 3 days ago I was 95 lbs. So what’s up with that? Yes I’m getting the right amount of calories. No I’m not starving. Yes I’m doing cardios. Yes I’m jogging. Yes I’m exercising in general. Yes I eat every 4 hours (breakfast, lunch and dinner) I don‘t over eat. Yes I eat fruits and veggies. I drink my fat free milk. I eat LEAN meats. I eat whole grains and wheats in high fiber. I drink 8 glasses of water. Yet, I’m still gaining. And please don’t tell me to not worry about it. Because for someone like me, I do worry about and it is a big deal. And 6 lbs in 3 days? Yeah water weight was what I lost, I know. But how can I still maintain my ideal weight without having to starve myself and still eat healthy. And I am eating healthy too. And yes I’m drinking prune juice for my constipation. So please someone help me.
2007-04-19
11:35:26
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