I have this anger thing, where I get really mad at my kids really fast. I have 3 under 5, and pregnant with #4. I'm under a lot of stress, and their father isn't much help as he works 15 hours a day 7 days a week. I only started getting this angry after my first was born. It went away, but as soon as #2 came 18 mos later, it was back, and worse. I actually could envision myself holding a pillow over my older child's face. I never did though. A lot of times, I actually feel like I hate my first born, even though he's only 4. I don't want to be around him, don't want him to talk to me, and I think I yell at him a lot more than the others. I still feel this way, and when I'm calm, and I sit down and actually think about it, it makes me cry and cry, cause how could a mother love one and not the other. Now, fast forward to now when #3 is 1 year old, I feel as if I hate kids, and i can't wait to get away from them. How could a mother feel this way about her kids? I'm scared.
2007-08-30
14:33:54
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