Sometimes when Im alone and Im thinking about my life and others' I mourn the fact that I have chosen 'this' life. Asking myself if this is what I really wanted.
You see I am a single mom of a 7 mo old & I have a great job that provides very well for the two of us. I am able to have my own apartment, car, life... I mean, Im making it pretty well. And in rare moments, I pat myself on the back. Im a great mom and it feels good.
But then again, there are those times when I get sad b/c I could have done ANYTHING. I could be living ANYWHERE. Instead, I live in a small town & am not currently working my dream job. I could have gone to culinary school... I could be in college right now... I could be going out every nite and meeting new ppl. Instead I go from work to pick up my son... take him home, bathe him, feed him, play... & rock him to sleep. & that is all worth it. I love it.
But then I get upset again b/c of the "what ifs". However, his smile or giggle melts me.
IM LOST
2006-10-24
06:43:55
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