Everytime I'm about to get into a relationship, I do something to cause it to fall apart before it begins. Like the last time I told him I was "emotionally unavailable" as gay as it sounds, its the honest to god truth. And the only successful relationship i've had was with KID A. Kid A and I were very similar people, so when we started hanging out and stuff it TOTAL worked and fit right?! But he has an actual mental disorder and issues with depression. I helped him through some and for some reason, right between New Years and Valentines Day something happened, I dont remember what, and I remember saying to him "This is too much I cant deal with it." He had me thinking he was honestly going to entertian thoughs of suicide. I put his little brother on suicide watch when I couldnt be. I hated KID A for around a year. He and I are friends again, and honestly I sorta want him back because we had so much fun, but why must I sabotage all new relationships before they begin? What is this?!
2006-10-02
15:20:31
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Kristen S
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Mental Health