I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder years ago. All my life i've felt empty, depressed, and worthless. I've been cutting since i was 8, i'm now 26. I got married last year to a control freak who put me down all the time, we're seperated and now i feel 10000 times worse. I feel like a totally different person. Usually when relationships end, I could just find someone else to fill the void or be sexually promiscious, but I don't feel like that now. I feel homicidal, suicidal, and just really ready to give up. I'm going off into rages all the time, i'm agressive, and doing things that i've never done before. I used to be a huge animal lover and now I find myself hating animals, sometimes I swirve to the side of the road to hit and kill them, then I laugh about it. Also, I find myself crying about 90% of the day and i'm cutting to the point to where I know i'm doing it too deep but it excites me and kinda turns me on. When I masturbate, I think about choking people.
2006-08-20
17:19:12
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R@zorBl@deKisses
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