Dearest Sexy,
Thank you again for being so good to me. You have a long history of sending very nice, poetic, thoughtful emails. I am not as creatively inclined but I'd like to tell you some things from the heart. You are full of kindness. I can trust you, and I have immense confidence in you. You have personal integrity which I find admirable, respectable, and endlessly attractive.
My life revolves around Nessa most of the time, and you have never made me feel bad about not being able to give you my full attention. I always knew I had to be extra careful in choosing who to spend time with because of having an impressionable, vulnerable young person in my care. Therefore I did not want to get in over my head too quickly, and lose sight of what is important. But I've gotten to know you over the past many months, and since I have a moment, I wanted to take the time to make sure you know how much I appreciate you.
First of all I want to thank you again for being so flexible and understanding. You see that I do not have the freedom of a single person, and even though you do not have a child of your own you understand as if you did. In fact you work together as a team when we're all together, especially the little details such as holding a door or helping with a jacket. Those things you do I deeply appreciate and make you a hero to me. I know you well enough to know that you're not just putting on an act, you are just a naturally helpful soul. Plus you set such a good example in front of my girl, and you can't even put a value on something like that especially when there has never been a good example like that in her life before. The fact you treat me well reflects back to her so it's a double good deed.
If I never got mixed up with a bad guy many years ago, if history could be changed I simply wish I could have had a child with you instead. Had we somehow been able to meet a decade ago, wouldn't things be different. The imagination can crank out endless possibilities but perhaps the right time never was back then, for either of us. We only have today, and the mystery of the future to work with. Fantasizing about what could have happened in the past is useless, so that leaves fantasizing about the future.
I don't believe in fate or destiny, I feel that what happens in life is largely influenced by acting upon what you want to happen. In a way I think it's a mistake to lay back and think "this was meant to be," because then people stop putting forth an effort and don't have to make decisions. And that line of thinking can also wrongly justify staying in a bad situation, such as in abuse-- such if someone already has it in their head that "this was meant to be," and is too stubborn to see things falling apart. So, even though it is romantic to think that you and I were "meant to be," I think it is far more more beautiful to know that some things really are in our control. I want you. (Not just sexually.) Today, and tomorrow, and thereafter, and I am willing to work for it and work with you to achieve mutual goals.
Thank you so much for being a part of my life. Thank you for coming into the New Year with me. This is very special to me. You are very special to me. You have given me hope and a sense of belonging. Sometime I feel like only now my life has really begun since I met you. Instead of trapping me, you have freed me. Since I do not have to rely on wishful thinking, I do not have to call you the man of my dreams. You are not a fantasy, you are a reality.
Love Pumpkin
2007-01-15
18:10:16
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