Nothing rational, I've tried rationalizing myself out of this hellhole.
Everyone and everything is going to die. I'm going to die, my sister is going to die, my mother, my father, my boyfriend, my cat, trees, birds, worms.
I'm angry at my parents, for making me exist in the first place when it's pointless and is just going to end.
I'm scared, because I'm an agnostic atheist. I've examined every other viewpoint but I just end up there. I don't think there's an afterlife but what if there is? I don't think I'd be bothered at all if I truly believed in a deity, that I was going to live forever.
I wish I hadn't been born in the first place. I'm only 15 and I've been going to bed every night, wishing I won't wake up because I just don't feel like existing anymore. My life is great. I'm healthy, my family loves me, my boyfriend loves me, I have an education. Doesn't matter, because I'm just going to die.
2007-05-25
22:05:41
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