I'm from Delhi and living out of India for almost over 12years. In 2003 I contacted my far-related Brother-in-Law who is managing a Buying house in WEST Delhi for a USA based importer. I asked him to help me to relocate in Netherlands as I was told by him, he has his own company & warehouse there, which later I found was a lie. Instead of it he asked me to work on 50% profit partnership with them in China and help them establish office there. I was carried by the dreams they showed and failed to see real picture. I made 3 visit to china during that year before taking both brothers (Brother-in-law and his younger brother). During that trip I realized I'm been used as a guide to show them various places in China and found myself working as Pimp for them as they could not speak Chinese and need me to arrange girls for them. later his younger keep coming to China and on each trip every evening engage in sexual activities, once he even made intercourse in front of me. I was weak and tolerated all this as I badly needed business. But later I refused to work with them and parted away when they ask me to arrange call-girl for an employee who they brought on one of the trip. I just could not stop feeling low & guilty about myself. During one of trip to Delhi they arrange Russian Call girl for me also which I took to give them face but stayed away from her due to fear.
What make me confuse is that
1. Every time they made sex on that very same bed in hotel room they will say prayers - Are they thanking God and asking him to provider better girl next day or asking for forgiveness, if forgiveness then why God is partial
2. Why after leaving them due to fear of GOD, I'm without work and income since last Jan 2005 till now. Is my faith in him was weak or he virtually did not care or rich can get better favor from him then others.
I know I should have not worked with them, be a pimp for them or first place weak to do all this. Now when I have done it, rejected it for future by turning away it then why I'm subjected to his law and not them, as I found they are getting blessed more and much everyday then me.
Is GOD real or just myth
I was Baptist but have stop going to church since then as I'm not clear if my worship, knowledge is correct, is my decision to turn away was right
Please advise where I made mistake, should I go back and be pimp or GOD is partial in delivering his judgment as I have no money to offer to him
2006-12-18
14:27:29
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