I can't stand myself. I am 17 years old, 1400 SAT, IQ of 135. I am the lonliest person I know. I have had one meaningful relationship, 2 years ago. It ended with her going to my best friend, who is still my best friend. Every situation since then has caused me to go start defining things in black and white. E.G, if a hear a car coming, I will say to myself "if it is a light color -- this girl likes me, if it is a dark color -- she doesn't like me." I'll count the change in my pocket and do the same thing based on even or odd numbers. Often I become really depressed and think of how much better my life could be. I have one close friend, and a few not-so-close ones. I used to be a very outgoing person, but now I just keep to my self, and sleep through school. My GPA is roughly a 2.2, and I KNOW I can do better, even if I set goals for myself I can't follow them however. If it helps, I don't do any drugs, and rarely drink. I used to smoke, but quit. Why am I messed up like this?
2007-06-09
09:11:27
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