What mental problem do I have?

Question

I can't stand myself. I am 17 years old, 1400 SAT, IQ of 135. I am the lonliest person I know. I have had one meaningful relationship, 2 years ago. It ended with her going to my best friend, who is still my best friend. Every situation since then has caused me to go start defining things in black and white. E.G, if a hear a car coming, I will say to myself "if it is a light color -- this girl likes me, if it is a dark color -- she doesn't like me." I'll count the change in my pocket and do the same thing based on even or odd numbers. Often I become really depressed and think of how much better my life could be. I have one close friend, and a few not-so-close ones. I used to be a very outgoing person, but now I just keep to my self, and sleep through school. My GPA is roughly a 2.2, and I KNOW I can do better, even if I set goals for myself I can't follow them however. If it helps, I don't do any drugs, and rarely drink. I used to smoke, but quit. Why am I messed up like this?

I don't think I have OCD. I don't rearrange things, I'm not mad when things aren't order or my hands aren't washed. None of that crap. It has to be something more than depression. I get so messed up sometimes, I'll drive around 100+ MPH just because I don't care. I get to a point where if something happens, it would feel like someone else takes control of my life and I don't have to try anymore.

Answer 1

It sounds like you are depressed and have OCD.
You should talk to your parents and consider seeing a psychiatrist. Good luck to you. I am your age and I used to be really depressed and I had really bad anxiety. I saw a psychiatrist and went to therapy and I am back to normal. I am very outgoing I have great friends, good grades, and an amazing life. People always tell me how happy I am and its true now. I hope you feel better. If you let someone help you, you will. ♥

Answer 2

The why doesn't much matter. What matters is how you're going to get unmessed up.

The counting business sounds like OCD., but some of the rest sounds like depression. Go see your doctor and tell him/her about this and don't leave until you either get medicine or a referral to a psychiatrist for an evaluation.

Until then, get a do-gooder friend, parent or relative to walk with you (make you get up and out) for 15-30 minutes everyday. If you have a church (even if you haven't gone lately) call the minister and explain your situation and what you're trying to do; maybe the church can supply the do-gooder. Every morning take a shower, brush your teeth and shave. If you take care of yourself in little ways, your self-esteem will rise.

Call the local Habitat for Humanity chapter and ask about the next Saturday they'll be building. You don't need any special skills. You're old enough to help and seeing something come out of nothing and for a family that's working with you will make you feel better.

Show your parents your question and all the answers you got and ask what they think would be good solutions. Think about how many strangers reached out to you and replied. Leave the loneliness and relationship problems alone until you feel better inside. They may resolve themselves, but, if not, they'll be easier to fix once you're okay.

People who've done both say it's harder to quit smoking than to give up heroin. Congratulations.

Answer 3

You are going through a very common stage in life for people with your high intelligence. You are not as alone as you think you are right now, because there are others just like you. Rest assured that if you can hang in there over the next few years, you will be able to sort your life out. I would suggest getting involved with at least one group on your level - a chess club, a debate club, a math club, a science club - so you start to mingle with others like you.

Don't worry about the girlfriend situation - once you develop your social skills (by being in one or more like-minded groups), the intelligent girls will gravitate toward you, or you'll get introduced to somebody's sister.

You do need to get back into doing well in school, though. It will pay great dividends in many different ways in your future. It really DOES matter. Make your goals short-term, small goals, easier to attain.

Answer 4

I feel very much like you sometimes, and I'm 35 now. I never went to a therapist; I've always tried sorting things out on my own, but am considering going again and seeing if it helps.

I feel for you. I know what it's like to be lonely and depressed, and from time to time you get yourself out of a rut, but then fall back into it again.

You sound like a good person, someone who will attract the right people into your life when the time is right. You should talk to your doctor or seek some therapy too. You may not feel comfortable doing so at first, but, it's my opinion, that if the therapist is someone who can help you, you'll feel comfortable around him or her and make progress.

School will help too. You'll be very busy studying, as you should do.

Please know that you're still so very young. I mean that you have sooo much life still to live and things WILL get better for you. You have to work at it a little bit, and sometimes, things just work out for the best for you. Hang in there. Believe in yourself.

I'm 18 years older than you (wow! time goes fast!!), but I'm still grappling with my own similar issues and just know that some days will be better than others. Just know that you do get out of a bad rut. As lonely and depressed as you feel, you're not alone in these feelings.

While life is not always great and happy, be grateful for the good times, help other people and animals, and work on your own self-improvement too. You'll build confidence and have a good feeling inside -- and others will take notice too.

You have a bright future ahead. Just know that you're not messed up, and that things will get better.

:)

Answer 5

Basically you're depressed. You show some signs of obsessive/compulsive behavior, but they seem relatively mild. See a doctor. Medication will help you feel better and get your life back on track. Focus on getting ready for college. Life will look much better when you get there. Good luck.

Answer 6

OCD?? Or maybe you're depressed.

Answer 7

Your 17. That is the problem and the answer to You dilemma. Welcome to the reality of becoming a Man.