I have dealt with depression my whole life, but I never went to see a psych or anything. I have always dealt with my problems internally. I feel that I have wasted so much of my life. Yet, I know that as always it is a passing phase.
Overall, I am in a better position, but it is not satisfying my needs of life. I work and study exessively. If I don't, I may relapse into a state of boredom accompanied by feelings of uselessness.
I attend colege full time, and work 30 hrs a week. I also am in the Army Reserves. I have traveled to several countries in my time, but now I feel that I am stuck in a rut. I feel that life is going to be one endless agonozing problem after another. I am not happy, but I am not depressed. I have no feelings of darkness that I associate with depression. I just feel a severe lack of happiness. I am living mechanically. I have a hole in me where my happiness was.
So am I depressed or just lacking life's enjoyment?
What are my options?
With no drugs.
2007-02-01
16:06:22
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6 answers
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Zeke
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