First off, let me say I have OCD. I've been to therapy and taken meds for it and all that, but lately a new fear cropped up in my mind and it feels so real that it's hard for me to believe that no one else in the world feels it to. It started when I had to cut up some raw chicken for work and saw how slimy and veiny it was ect. and the thought popped up in my mind about my own interior body, how its slimy and veiny and muscular, and how its bloody meat, and the skeleton, which I'm used to seeing as a horror icon, hung as paper copies on doors on Halloween and the embodiment of the Grim Reaper, and this creepy thing is a part of my body! I just had this total wave of revulsion over my own interior body, I wished that I was imbued with like heavenly energy or something, that seems more attune to what my spirit means to me, the idea that its all just guts and blood saturated organs kinda sickens me, and its who I am. Is this OCD, am i bein irrational? or does anyone else go through this?
2007-08-06
15:16:09
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