First of all I am a top contributor in another category, but I didn't want this question revealed to my contacts or listed under my questions, so I made a new profile.
I've been in counseling most of my life, on and off for various reasons. I have been suicidal most of my life, well to be honest, suicidal during my teens, but suicidal thoughts haunt me daily sometimes, and right now, they haunt me hourly. I can't think of anything else, but the fact that I don't want to see tomorrow. Part of me doesn't have the guts to do it, because I tried before and it didn't happen, and I don't want to be in the hospital with a tube down my nose again, forced to drink charcoal. I have a partner who I have been with for 5 years, a daughter and a stepson, yet they are not enough for me to continue on. I don't WANT to continue on. I need the pain to end. I can't be hospitalized, I just started a new job, plus I don't see it helping. I don't know why I posted here, i just needed an outlet.
2007-08-06
02:41:31
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