For whatever reason, and it's been a while, I can't seem to control myself anymore. I always seem to wake up to and fall asleep to a bad/hostile mood, I'm angry or at least anxious/depressed about everything, and I'm pretty much anti-social. I feel like I lost control and meaning over my life, and that I've done it all. I feel ultra-jaded, and no matter what I do, take medication, exercize, go shopping, succeed in life, nothing at all seems to make a difference for me.
A's in school did nothing. Money does nothing. Sex does nothing (well temporarily it feels good), but I mean I can't seem to get meaning or pleasure from anything, and I just don't really care about anything or anyone anymore.
It's dangerous because I don't care about myself, and I don't care about others.
I don't know if I have depression because I don't feel gloomy or have low self esteem. My problem is more,...negative thought patterns which take over my whole being, and anger, and hate towards others.
2007-08-06
10:18:56
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