Lately I have had several "episodes" in which I seem to swing back and forth between the world in my head and reality ( whatever that means ).
I have tried very hard to get from day to day without acting in a way that would make other see me as a little "off", but it seems I can't. I have had some really, really scary hallucinations, people's voices seem to be different from time to time, and I cant feel - anything - at all. I fake my reactions, but inside I feel dead already. There is a kind of monster that follows me around everywhere, sometime comforting me, sometimes screaming at me... I feel like my head is going to pop open, and I am too paranoid to tell my wife or my Doctor about it... I tried - I really did - but the voice always talks me out of it.
I am afraid I am going to loose my wife, my kids, my job - everything - and end up on the street.... I know there is a very real chance of that happening....
How can I get help without my Family or my boss finding out?
2007-08-01
08:34:35
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Jason D
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