For whatever reason, and it's been a while, I can't seem to control myself anymore. I always seem to wake up to and fall asleep to a bad/hostile mood, I'm angry or at least anxious/depressed about everything, and I'm pretty much anti-social. I feel like I lost control and meaning over my life, and that I've done it all. I feel ultra-jaded, and no matter what I do, take medication, exercize, go shopping, succeed in life, nothing at all seems to make a difference for me.
A's in school did nothing. Money does nothing. Sex does nothing (well temporarily it feels good), but I mean I can't seem to get meaning or pleasure from anything, and I just don't really care about anything or anyone anymore.
It's dangerous because I don't care about myself, and I don't care about others.
I don't know if I have depression because I don't feel gloomy or have low self esteem. My problem is more,...negative thought patterns which take over my whole being, and anger, and hate towards others.
2007-08-06
10:18:56
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➔ Mental Health
I've gone through alot in life, maybe that's why. Met lots of bad people, had lots of bad experiences, and all in all, it took its toll on me, and I generally just don't seem to like living anymore, since it's more BS than good times.
Traffic, annnoying people, problems, drama, and our political/environmental/economic environment sucks, and makes me not want to do it anymore.
I just want to sit at home and do nothing, and waste away, but even that is obviously depressing sounding.
What do I do?
2007-08-06
10:20:16 ·
update #1