I've started turning depressed in 2005, before it ended I was very suicidal too but my past, which seemed to both haunt me and hold me, stopped me, because I just couldn't do it, I have too many dreams I still have to follow... well, I think logically if I died back then it would have been better than to live the year after, 2006, which filled me with MANY more problems AND made me numb to them, so I just couldn't do anything but keep on suffering, because I tried seeking the help of a 'professional', but as I find out now that word just doesn't match with 'help'...
Today problems seem much more clear albeit hopeless, I found out that my depression stems from a life of being beaten up by my father and mutilated verbally by my mother, and it seems police won't even do anything but lock me up in this house with them being subject to more of such insanity.
So, I'm thinking of death all the time, I have an 11 year old sister too, I want to save us both or we got no future, what can I do?
2007-03-27
16:25:16
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