Have you ever been a "cutter" or still are?

Question

Why do you think you do it?

Answer 1

i used to cut. i was in a horrible marriage and couldnt get out for financial reasons. im now divorced and i no longer do it. it was for me a punishment for being alive. i was told alot thru my entire life i was a mistake and not worth anything.well im in counseling and no longer hate myself.

Answer 2

Well yes i have been called a cutter, the purpose was for different reasons, sometimes the people i was seeing at the top of the ceiling, with hollow faces would say if i cut , it would set them free, so i cut, other times , for punishment, other times for relief some pain i was feeling or guilt, or just cause i needed to , or i wanted to. I have a cutter still within, and some times that person comes out and cut, usually when there had been a problem, and they did not think it had be resolved. But yes i have cut for many different reasons, and i thought it was over and about 6 months ago i wake up with a huge cut, and very deep, but it had been treated by the others within..

Answer 3

I remember my first cut very well. My parents were fighting as usual and this time I couldn't take it anymore. I became very upset at them for making me feel sad. Then my sadness turned into anger. For some odd reason the thought, "I should kill myself." crept into my mind. I thought I could punish my parents for making me feel this way.
So I grabbed a knife and snuck upstairs. I could still hear the voices of my mother and father bickering. I was very scared, but I knew I had to to do it. So I did. I took the knife and tried to open my veins. What I succeeded in doing was making tiny cuts across my wrists. I was so mad at myself (because I wasn't dying), but the sight of my blood and the stinging calmed me down. Since that moment when I was 11 years old then I was addicted to cutting.

Gradually I evolved into using razors and I began cutting whenever I felt sad or angry. I also did it to punish myself if I did something wrong or simply because I hated myself with a passion. I thought I deserved the damage I was doing to my own body.
I am now 20 years old (21 next month) and I'm slowly trying to kick this habit of mine. I'm so much better, but I still have a long way to go. I also found out that I have borderline personality disorder with depression last year. It helps to know that my self injury is part of a disorder.

Answer 4

I use to be but I recovered and have not done it in 7 years after successful treatment. The reason at the time I did was because I felt extreme frustration. Most people take there anger and frustration out other people sometimes to the point were you want hurt them. But when your a cutter you feel extreme anger and frustration towards yourself that your want to take your anger out on yourself by cutting. It was not fun and I am glad I have gotten over that.

Answer 5

My story is like others, but yeah. Cutting for 3-4 years, still am (along with other forms of self injury.) Why I think I do it. Well, I personally think I hurt myself for the endorphines (when your body experiences pain, it releases endorphines into the blood stream, which cause a sense of well being, which is partially why people feel relieved after cutting and stuff.) But, I think it also has to do with me feeling like my friends and family think that I am not in any emotional pain (I've been diagnosed depressed, but ppl tend to think it is just minor), so I tell myself that if I'm able to take my emotions out on myself then I must be in pain, so I sort of validate my pain. Also a possible control thing for me (I have a lot of issues with control), and I do it to punish myself for things I've done wrong, stuff like that. It's interesting that you ask, are you just curious, or are you also a self harmer? Just wondering is all. If you are, feel free to message me anytime you want to talk. Good luck with everything
-Sarah

Answer 6

I cutt myself but it is a way of cooping with my problems.Do you know what it is like to get a cut then get a bigger injurie?You focus on the bigger injurie becouse it hurts more.The same way with cutting.The pain on the inside hurts so when you cutt yourself it distracts you from the inside pain.I have been cutting for about a year now and it is not fun.It is very addicting after the first couple of times.When I get upset or something happens I know that It will go away more if I cutt and that is usually what makes me cutt,just knowing it will stop temporarily.People dont understand why other people do it becouse they dont understand how bad it hurts sometimes.People all have ways of cooping with there problems but when it hurts so bad your willing to do anything to get rid of the pain or what ever you feel.Then it just becomes normal everyday life when you do it so long,you get used to the fact that something actually works and it turns into a like a medication.Like I said, people have different way of dealing with there problems,some resort to drinking,drugs,violence, just about anything.

Answer 7

I started cutting about 3 years ago, during my junior year of high school. I haven't cut in about 6 days, and I'm not planning on doing it again (but then, I wasn't planning on doing it again 6 days ago, either). I'm not sure that I can explain exactly why I cut because I'm not always sure I know why I do it, and it's not always for the same reason, but I'll try...

A lot of the time when I cut myself it's because of something silly that I said or did that I was embarased about, something that I'm sure no one else who was there even remembers, but I'll get so angry at myself that the only way to let it go is to hurt myself. It's kind of like a punishment that then once I've done that I don't have to think about whatever it was anymore. Of course, whatever was bothering me always ends up coming back, but it does work for a while.

Other times I just get so frustrated or overwhelmed or angry, and I don't even know why that makes me want to cut myself, but I end up doing it for some reason.

Some of the time when I was younger it was basically for attention, even though no one ever saw the cuts. When I'd cut myself, I'd want so much for someone to see it, and I don't even know exactly what I wanted them to do, I just wanted someone, some adult in my life, to notice that something was wrong. That definitely never worked, though, because the next day I'd wake up and put on a long sleeve shirt to make sure that no one could see the cuts.

That doesn't even come close to explaining why I do it, but that's about as much of it as I could figure out how to say.

There are lots of other reasons that people cut themselves that are differnet than why I do it. Some people do it to feel something, because they're so numb from past traumas. Other people do it to distract themselves from the emotional pain they feel, just like if you stub your toe and the slam your finger in the door you forget that your toe hurts. So people (particularly survivors of sexual abuse) do it to make their bodies less attractive to potential predators. For other people it's about control - they feel like they have no control over their lives, and cutting gives them control over their body, and their experience of physical pain. It can also be a way of proving to themself that they're strong enough to do it. Sometimes it is to get attention, particularly among kids who may not be getting much attention at home (maybe because their parents are going through a divorce, a sibling is seriously ill, or their primary caregiver is abusing drugs or alcohol). There are some number of people who cut themselves just to fit in with the "emo" crowd, but these people definitely represent the minority of cutters. The vast majority of the time, there's something behind it other than that the person thinks it's just a cool or fun thing to do.

Answer 8

i was for 3 years and thankfully i havent cut for a month and im planning on never doing it again.

i started because of something traumatic that happened in my life....

my cousin used to be my best friend. her & i were really close, but she was really depressed and used to cut herself. its a long story why. i was the only person she told about her depression and the only person who knew about the cutting. however, unlike other cutters my cousin wasnt just doing it cuz it made her feel better, but it turns out she actually wanted to die. finally 3 years ago she killed herself. and i can fully blame it on myself. if it werent for me trying to be a good friend and keep her secret, i could have told somebody and she would be alive RIGHT NOW. but thanks to me, my cousin is dead. its almost as if i killed her.

then last month, i realized how ironic it is what a hypocrite i was being that what i was doing was what made my cousin die, kinda. but still, when i think back on it (like right now) its so hard for me to not just grab my razor and give up. but ive gotten this far and im not gonna quit.

Answer 9

its a control issue for me, i just want to be in control of something in my life even if it is pain.
the way i look at it is: If you hate something you want to destroy it.
Some pretty bad stuff happened last year, and it was all at once and it just got too much, the longet i have stopped for was 4 days and you dont know how hard that was for me, it doesnt seem like much but that was a pretty big accomplishment for me, that was about a month ago, and i havnt tried stopping since. I want to stop but its like a drug, sooo addictive.

Answer 10

No, I never cut me but, I wanted to cut other people.
Not really I was just joking...I do understand not liking yourself
and I know sometime pain feels good if it makes you forget a much deeper pain.I got all of that problem down.Also,
you get a lot of attention went you hurt yourself.But no,I would
just get high or drink into Oblivion.