I'm stuck dreaming about killing myself?

Question

For the past week, yes all seven nights, I have had different dreams all about killing myself. This haunts me because a year ago I was suicidal. I know that may be a source but I don’t think it would cause a week’s worth of nightmares a year later. I have tried praying, reading my bible, sleeping in a new location, different thoughts before going to bed, different times to go to bed and at different times of day, but nothing has stopped it. Anyone have any insight or any other ideas?

Answer 1

First off, I'm really sorry for your suffering. Also, you are not alone in this. Thoughts and fears that you may suppress while you're awake reside in your subconscious and can manifest when you're in a dream state. For example, nightmares may evolve from feelings of inadequacy or of not being worthy.

If you have unfinished emotional business while you're asleep, you can finish it while you're awake. Set up a ritual before you go to bed. Things that you can do:

1) Talk about the nightmare with someone. Give it a voice. Describe it fully, scene by scene, what happened and how you felt.
2) Write it out. Write out the whole scenario, including what happens when you wake up, if you sleepwalk, etc.
3)Imagine a more pleasant ending...meditate on that pleasant ending (of course that being you NOT killing yourself).
Getting every neurological loop involved can help you end these horrible dreams.

If those rituals don't lessen the nightmares, take a closer look at your internal dialogue. What you tell yourself can have a dramatic influence on your subconscious.

A lot of people experience nightmares when they are undergoing stress in their waking lives, such as a change on the job, pregnancy, moving, financial concerns, etc.

Try to visualize a beautiful image as you are falling asleep....one that makes you happy. I know this sounds simple and maybe you've tried it, but it can work if you are persistent. Also, please remember that whatever you can do (in a positive way of course) to relieve all the stress you're under in your waking life will surely help with this.

Please take care and let us know how you're doing.
Sincerely,
-K

Answer 2

Please call your doctor... even if it's been a year. Many times these feelings that have been suppressed for so long start to suddenly reappear. Having been through this, it was usually a good sign that I was mentally, emotionally ready to deal with past experiences that were unresolved because I was not strong enough to deal with earlier. Healing takes time and this road with take some strange twists and turns sometimes.

Take care,
Mon :-)

Answer 3

lets take 2 inventories for a moment please: remember dreams often play out our fears as well as interpet recent events.
inventory one: look around you... what have you been doing lately , any recent trauma, feelings of guilt, anything that may trigger off those old suicidal feelings, also what medication are you on? if any - often some anti depressents have the side effect of vivid/unpleasent dreams - go over this with your prescribing physician. how about food in your stomach prior to going to sleep especially food that takes time to digest - for example - meats or other heavy foods. always good to take inventory of any old issues that you may still have not resolved - especially when they provoke anger or pain - type in steps in forgiveness on your computer and see if that doesnt help you to discover those old issues and with practice resolve them. just a few possibilities - now for inventory #2 how many and who are they - the significant people in your life - the ones you can without hesitation say you love them! lets call these folks - your support system and if you dont have one then we can build one starting with developing a list of 24 hour hotlines and maybe a mental health professional at a clinic (no you are not crazy if you go to a mental health clinic - you are taking responcibility for yourself and addressing a problem.) are you spending quality time with other people or are you alone often. are you on medication? have you stopped it recently? good questions to ask yourself and bounce off someone you trust. any recent changes in diet - healthy versus McDonalds or junk food. any XX in alcohol or drugs.

Answer 4

Make yourself busy by doing hard physical work throughout the day. You can even tire yourself mentally, so that when you hit the sack, I mean when you go to bed you'll literally be dead tired. Take long walks or jogging to make you tired, or manually washing clothes.

Answer 5

Reoccurring nightmares are issues that may require attention from a psychologist. I highly recommend that you get advice from a psychologist on how to control those nightmares. If nothing happens your psychologist could recommend a psychiatrist to prescribe medication for your nightmares. There is medication that will help stop nightmares too.

Answer 6

Your dreams are actually helping you to release your past suicidal thoughts. They will be gone soon if you acknowledge it as the release of it.

Answer 7

i have had that and still are having it but the only thing i can tell u to do is to go see a counsler it might help.

Answer 8

Do yoga, do exercise, don´t try to think about it anymore, go to a psicology, it spends the time with your friendships...

Answer 9

do yoga, meditation for a temporary relief. ur mind is playing with u. u need to see a psychiatric asap..

Answer 10

Get off the drugs Darren.