I've struggled with pretty much constant self harm for the past couple of years and I'm trying to recover now. I've been doing not TOO badly but any time I go out with friends or drink alcohol I have a huge urge to self harm.
I know what everyone's going to say - that alcohol is a depressant and it makes me feel down leading to the urge to self harm, but it's not always like that.
Some nights I can go out, have a few drinks and have a really good night, enjoy myself with my friends. But as soon as I come home I really want to cut. Even if I DON'T drink, I still want to self harm. Sometimes it makes sense, like if I haven't had a good night and feel a bit down, but other times I can have had a good night but still really want to self harm when I get home.
It's not even so much when I get home, I can be half way through the night and the urge just hits me out of nowhere, but I've stopped carrying blades around with me (I used to).
What's it all about??!!!
2006-07-01
14:08:48
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