On one hand, I have a lot of compassion for you [though it may come out totally wrong] and I care about you, definitely want to support you and all that. I like when you are around and I think you are very sweet. I want you in my life, I want to be friends and I want to have the option of more than friends. I feel butterflies when you kiss me and when I read your letters [the nice ones at least]. I love that you want to communicate, how open and honest you are. I love your art and you have great taste in music, politics, everything really. I really do like you and your amazing qualities. You are most definitely a great catch.
On the other hand, I'm scared to look you in the eye [this is so rare for me], a lot of things I say to you come out wrong or twisted and I have a hard time thinking when you are around. My view on us is distorted because of an imbalance in our relationship. I feel like I was given too much power in needing to decide what 'we' would be.. when i just wanted to be with you without constraints. I don't know why we have to be all or nothing, it's so black and white - i cant commit to only you because it would be unfair to you [since i dont want to be monogamous] i cant handle not having you at all, I want to be friends, I want you in my life. I wish you would come around to this and realize that neither of us are going to get what we want, we need to find some common ground - a place where we meet in the middle. Our differences aren't huge enough to keep us apart, there are many more positive than there are negative [at least in my eyes]. While we can't have a monogamous relationship, I still want to continue to care about you and to receive your respect. I still want to hang out with you and sleep next to you. I still want to talk to you and know how you are doing.
BUT... it seems that you don't want to come to meet me half-way... maybe you are considering this, or maybe you want to drop me completely from your life. I think this may be true, but I hope not.
I know you have yet again ignored me and you want to 'move on', but if you find yourself willing to let down your wall please let me know - because I am more than willing to work something out.
2007-05-25
19:20:36
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HeckofaDude
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