2 wks ago, I broke down at my counsellors (I'm suffering post traumatic depression from childhood violence), she made an emergency app at docs who put me straight on anti-depressants. When I rang my boyfriend, he told me it was a nightmare going out with me, it's all in my head & I have no-one to blame but myself. So I dumped him. I then spent the next week begging him back, but to no avail. He's bullied me the whole way through our relationship, telling me I'm messed up in the head, that I'm embarrassing, bascially dampening my spirit and undermining my friendships. I'm v insecure, so this was very damaging 4me. No matter what my head says, my heart is missing him so much. I feel pathetic cos I know (&all our friends agree) that being with him has been destroying me. But I keep having bleak moments. Should I try and get him back? I want 2b everything to him, but felt I gave all that I had &it was just never enough. I feel like I'm never going to be enough for anyone :-(
2007-05-30
02:02:44
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