I have done the one thing that I swore, I VOWED I would never do again.... I fell in love. I allowed the wall that has built up over 33 years to be broken down by a man whom, in only 2 months, I have fallen HARD for. He doesn't want a girlfriend right now though. He just wants to be friends. Since hearing this and finding out that a good majority of others knows how I feel and how he does not feel, I want to just crawl in a hole a dissapear. I want to go back to having that wall up. I have been trying to focus on everything else, my college degree, finding a good job, etc... but I can't seem to stop loving him. I wish he saw himself as I do. His smile makes my heart leap and I love the sound of his voice. I want to support his dreams, goals and desires in life. Be there when he succeeds, and hold him when and if he cries. But if he only sees me as a friend, how can that ever happen? How can I go back to putting that wall up? I have to see him at church every Sunday too!
2006-08-31
17:27:42
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