I'm 38. I'm trying to work up the nerve to go and stay in school because that is supposed to be the way to freedom--education. Hard work is the other way...
As I struggle to feel better about myself after the stuff I've been through in my life and try to get the courage to make serious and positive changes, I'm realizing that the same stuff comes up for me. The same fears about being at school, around people... it's like I'm an elementary school kid all over again.
Is it possible for me to change? Or will I always be and feel exactly like I do right now? Looking back, I have tried many things. All which has brought me to this place. I have always been this way: A fearful scared little boy. Anything I have done was a big charade to mask that! Knowing that, it doesn’t make anything easier. Answering my own question, "I guess I just have to keep trying"!!!!
What do you think?
2007-04-12
09:21:57
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