so i dont know why but i think i'm jealous with my bestfriend.. and i think because if this jealousy i act ridiculously at times and when i did we wont talk to each other until i apologized. and more worse is, i am gay and he is str8, and once i fell in love with him. So this friendship and love and jealousy mixed each other and drive me nuts!! and because of him i left my friends that he hated, but now when i started to stop playing with him (he keep distance from me, because i got really2 moody because of sum stupid mixed feelings i cant control), now he is playing with my friends that i left before. I dont know why but i cant guess him. and he's so perfect that i adore him, and jealous, and when i looking at myself, this is unfair. i dont want to be gay, but i am. i dont want to be not smart, but i am not smart. he's all good. and now i'm alone. since i left my friends, He left me, and now i am stupid enough to feel jealous and cant control this feeling.. ah so sad of me T_T
2006-11-12
00:34:56
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