so i dont know why but i think i'm jealous with my bestfriend.. and i think because if this jealousy i act ridiculously at times and when i did we wont talk to each other until i apologized. and more worse is, i am gay and he is str8, and once i fell in love with him. So this friendship and love and jealousy mixed each other and drive me nuts!! and because of him i left my friends that he hated, but now when i started to stop playing with him (he keep distance from me, because i got really2 moody because of sum stupid mixed feelings i cant control), now he is playing with my friends that i left before. I dont know why but i cant guess him. and he's so perfect that i adore him, and jealous, and when i looking at myself, this is unfair. i dont want to be gay, but i am. i dont want to be not smart, but i am not smart. he's all good. and now i'm alone. since i left my friends, He left me, and now i am stupid enough to feel jealous and cant control this feeling.. ah so sad of me T_T
2006-11-12 00:34:56 · 3 answers · asked by lone-g4y 1 in Family & Relationships ➔ Friends
so he's smart, funny, handsome, model, str8, perfectionist. and people said that i am funnier, but so not cool. i'm not smart, and i think i am friendlier than him. but i got stressed at times and because of things i cant control myself and become ridiculously sucks at times. i wonder how can i build myself anew.. i become his friends for 3 years, and we got times when we wont talk to each other about 6 times. after we stopped talking to each other we always become bestfriends again. but right now i dont want to be stressed anymore.. so i think we cant possibly become bestfriends anymore..
2006-11-12 00:39:13 · update #1
yeah, so sad of me. and i wonder.. maybe i'm tired to try to get up again?? btw i dont love him anymore,, i think. since because of that love feelin once i almost killed myself -_- there's still the mark of wound in my hands. stupid2. how come this little things effect so much for me?
2006-11-12 00:41:46 · update #2
Sad is the word!!
2006-11-12 00:38:41 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
if you dont wana be a gay try being with girls....
and as for frndz....u can hav more..so chill!!!!!
you can also apoloise to ur old frndz n tell them the matter!!!
hope i helped you......
byeeeeee
good luck
2006-11-12 01:48:28 · answer #2 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
yes your right so very sad......get a grip buddy, forget this guy and make new friends, he obviously doesnt give a crap about you......
2006-11-12 00:41:49 · answer #3 · answered by Mintjulip 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋