I'm an old-fashioned woman once it comes to love. Not as naive as i used to be - i got my heart broken over puppy love in high school and i've learned to become realistic. When i got to college, i met this person who ended up being one of my close friends - probably the closest i've been to anyone for a long time. I never thought i would fall for him nor would he fall for me. We had a good relationship - nothing i've ever experienced. I was so comfortable with him - we could talk openly and trust each other about anything and everything (rare nowadays) and we could also laugh and understand each other. For a friendship, we were very affectionate - taking care of each other if one was heartbroken or not in a good place. Looking back, i'm surprised we kept inside the boundries as friends. He was always respectful and a gentleman to me - this was truly a special relationship no one can understand except for the two of us. Close for about three yrs...
Early this yr, we fell for each other year very deeply (hes always had feelings and i never caught on). We were "together" for a little (cuddles, give him first kiss) - i KNEW it would be potentially a good relationship. It was always my ideal relationship to end up w. a best friend. I could see myself being with him in the future for a long time but not at the moment. I had that "gut feeling" that kept telling me, "yes, be with him but wait. not now in your life." Very strong feeling and i agreed. I'm at the pt in my life where i want to start a foundation and finish my studies first. He understood completely and it was hard for both of us. For the next couple months after that, we tried being friends but i think it was harder for him than me. I told him back then that i would get over the situation of us not being together someday but i would never get over him. It's almost been a year and who knew i spoke the truth back then. I've met and hung out w. other guys but NOTHING compares to him. I respect him as a person and it's hard to shake him off. After the past few months, i've learned to not force feelings - to not force getting over him and not getting over him. It is what it is and let your feelings be. It's been months and i STILL feel the same way. I know for a fact the only way i'll get over him is if God allows me to meet my future husband. Other than that, i don't think i'll ever get over him.
2007-12-13
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