Your troublesome past, which you thought you had sort of control over, has been in control all along?
Ive had trouble letting people get close, especially men due to stuff that has happened when i was younger.
The problem is i work in a pub. And the land lord said that this lad (call him x) likes me, and hes a really nice guy, so he'd get x's number for me, and that i should let him take me out sometime. I said no, cause i wouldn't know what it would lead to. The land lord then said, 'well, it might lead to him loving you'. And that absolutely terrified me, ive never been so scared in all my life, i was actually crying at the thought of letting someone get so close.
I know i cant live my life as a solitary spinster, but if ever anyone does get close, the frightened part of me, stuck in the past, pushes them away, and its push is so much stronger than my need for companionship, also i fear being hurt.
I am my own worst enemy, i know.
Does anyone else have this problem??
2007-08-15
12:50:06
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Lifeless Energy
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