This is going to sound absurd. I'm afraid I killed somebody.
I suffer severe obsessive-compulsive disorder, I'm very disabled from it. I can't even go to school.
I've been delusioned into thinking I've killed people or tried to kill people since I was 12 (I'm 16 now). It's very scary, and I wish it would stop, but I can't convince myself I'm not guilty of murder.
This disease is clever (I hope it is!). One time I had this nightmare that I choked this kid to death somewhere, and last night I thought I had a "memory flash" which I'm hoping is a false memory, it probably is, that I had killed someone for real (back when I was 14 or 15). I can't remember what I was thinking about after this flash of memory, but my mind is telling me it wasn't good.
Can somebody please tell me I'm crazy? My god, this is tearing me apart, I don't know what to do. I can't trust my memory. Did I do something awful to block this out? I'm a good person, I can't be a killer?
2006-10-11
08:56:42
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