please help me!!i need help!?
please help me!me in great trouble!!?
I am 24 years old Indian girl. i had a bad life. i was unwanted child, my parents wanted to abort me but could not bcoz my mom could have died. My mom, dad sexually, physically and mentally abused me. I was raped at the age of 7. I was raped when i was 19 by my bf and his frd in a car. And now i fear i am pregnant as i had unprotected sex. My problem is that i met a guy a year back. He said he knows black magic, he is a tarot- card reader, he knows how to hypnotise. Infact he is a psychic. Bcoz once looking at my eyes he said what i thought about him. And once at night when i called him, he told me the colour of my night gown and how many pillows i had in my room. He was in his office and had no idea where i lived. I feel he is ruling my life , because whenever i tell him some secrets of my life , and about my love life, everything happens wrong. WhatWhat to do, me scared of him at the same time i love him.
i love him. he is very handsome, tall 6 feet, white skin, because his mom is white dad is indian, he has green eyes. he is like prince charming, i always dreamt of such a handsome guy right from my childhood, as my parents used to beat me and abuse me. i thought i'll get such a guy in my life who is handsome, but only problem is he doesnt propose to me and he does black magic. i feel i am pregnant, but i slept with another guy not with him. i did sleep with him, but it was like many months back(in may).
ya i am from india . i am not american indian
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i feel he is in black magic. because thrice he went in death bed, he has erectile dysfunction too. i want to leave him but i dont know how but i am always forced from inside to call him, as if he is suggesting me to call him. i am not having my periods, i feel like killing myself, because i cant get pregnant, as i am now in canada for international programme, i cant go to doctor for check up, because if i do, i'll be thrown out of the programme, and my career will end. after two months i have to go back to india, i cant go back to my parents, i have no relatives to help, to them i'll be a burden. finding job is not tough, but salary is very low. i can take loans, but all my neccesary documents are with my parents. i cant be a single mom in india because india doesnt accept single mom, my child wont get admission in school, nor i am financially stable to support child or bear social stigma. i am confused.
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4 minutes ago
i dont want to be mother. i am in canada, its a foreign country, i dont want to spoil image here by letting them know that i might be pregnant. cant go to the doctor too, i'll be thrown out, its the rule of the programme.
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57 minutes ago
i dont want to be mother. i'll die if i have to be pregnant.
2006-09-16
16:33:03
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