When I think of my high school days, I do miss them, but there were times I would talk to my mother after school about the constant teasing. I am not afraid to admit it used to make me tear up then, and now I just get mad thinking about it.
I don't play the blame game, but now that I'm 27, I feel that high school shaped my personality to what it is today. I'm now an introverted p***k...Actually, thats a bit harsh. I am an introvert: my mind is constantly 'scanning' a situation or I listen to something, but I never say much, if anything.
That alone I feel has indirectly shaped my professional life (I always sold myself short, and never spoke up), and my personal / love life (my self worth, confidence, esteem is low. I've never looked at myself in high regard).
I rarely go out, and I am uncomfortable in social settings. I don't care for bullies that abuse physically or verbally. I see myself beating the sh*t out of them at this reunion in my mind. I'm still hurt. Should I go?
2007-10-19
05:09:17
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