I have made a huge mistake. I completed my teacher training last year and have just got a teaching job. It's only part time, but it is in a really rough school, where behaviour problems are terrible. It's a temporary maternity cover until March, and I have only been there two weeks.
However, I can't stand it. I can't control any of my classes. The lessons are chaotic because I can't control them enough to teach them what I need to. I feel stressed, and a failure. I come home and cry, or drink, or both. I can't eat. I can't sleep. I have been thinking of the most awful ways of making it go away.
I have 2 kids, one of which is autistic, and I have health problems anyway. I had a feeling that teaching might be too much for me, but I went ahead and got the job. Now I am regretting it big time. I can't just leave. I signed a contract. On my days off I can't relax because I am panicking about the days I will be at the school. I can't concentrate on anything any more.
2006-11-08
06:01:13
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helly
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Mental Health