Hi. In the past I've discussed a lot of negative emotions i was feeling about myself, on life, etc. One piece of advice given was that while i felt negative and worthless that employment will help remove some of the idol and negative thought pattern. Well, I have finally gained employment after a few yrs and while i'm okay with the work itself after the 1st three weeks, my mode hasn't changed.
In fact a whole different set of negative thoughts have crepted in like "did i take the job as a form of self punishment, is this all I can do now meaning I've wasted all of my education, and must I continously spend all my money earned on bills, food, etc in order to prevent having available funding in case i more seriously thought about self harm?
For those that haven't read previous posts, yes i've seen therapists/shrinks before and hospitalized in past (depression, ptsd, schizoid, social anxiety) and yes has issues of self identity (i'm not gay) and not christian in christian region
2006-09-04
03:17:53
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eagleland06
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