When something unpleasant happens to me, the load that I have over my shoulder gets heavier. What I mean is that those events that made me angry or sad, are constantly attacking me in my mind and I live the same episode over and over. It can be something that happened 10 years ago, but I may still cry as soon as I remember. It can be also something that irritated me years ago, but the resentment is still there destroying me. This situation makes me really unhappy and I swear that those around me don't feel any good either. This is not something that I can analyze and say, "Ok, I am going to change because these feeling are harmful." The feelings are just embedded in my soul. If I have 500 reason to be sad and angry today, just imagine in a few more years. I used prayed for my internal peace, to learn to forget and forgive, but the miracle didn't occur.
2006-07-11
16:57:55
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