I am so jealous of my boyfriend's ex-wife. I know it is wrong, but it drives me insane. I am upset that he married her, I don't think that he can outdo his wedding. It sounds like it was a beautiful wedding, the kind I would have wanted. However, he had that moment with her and it can't be repeated, imitated or reproduced. I am afraid that if he proposed I would be unhappy, that it would feel like when somebody already wasted the "surprise" for a party on someone else...then you walk in and get the afterwave "awe...surprise!!!". So I think I have some psychological issues, or at the minimum extreme low self-esteem...obvoiusly. It all makes sense, I was sexually abused when I was 7 years old. Sometimes I think I may have Borderline Personality Disorder. Anyway, I love him and he's a great guy. I don't want to hurt him anymore...I have issues. So I think of leaving him quite often. He deserves better, he deserves a good wife. The problem is..I think he already had her.
2007-08-08
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