background: person i was with aborted a preg. 5 yrs ago this week (was inform of preg on my birthday). While i still view my life as somewhat prochoice, i do keep the thought like life would have been better if my alcohol/chemical poisoning suicide try had work.. Before continuing, yes, i have seen multiple therapists/pyschatrists on the matter. They, themselves are uncertain on how to proceed given my combo of schizoid, depression, anxiety, with ptsd traits. obviously given other events i know i have issues letting go of the past, and that given my social connections or desires for many of the social norms that contact and buildup of friendships/relationships are difficult.
But back to the point, i often question why i still defend something for which i still think about alot to the point of suicidal ideation. I get that blaming of myself and perhaps everyone else who isn't my ex gf for it could be an issue, but since i don't blame here, uncertain how or if i should continue
2007-02-04
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