I am not an atheist by choice, I honestly can not believe in God. I try, I will pray and read scriptures and while I have hope that one day I might have faith it does not exist. I know what it is to believe in something, such as believe that my wife loves me. I don't have such beliefs that God exists.
Strange, is it not. I've always have been told "just believe". Well, believing is not as simple as many people think it is. My mind will not accept that a God exists. I want one to, but regardless of how hard I pray or search the scriptures I never find that belief.
I've been called a liar for saying the above, but it is truth. I just do not believe. It honestly sucks, if I had such belief then atleast I might be comforted in it.
I don't see how anyone can really believe that God exists when I can not hold such a belief.
Life sucks, it really does. I need something and I am not getting it.
2007-11-16
02:28:14
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