I just don't get it. Why doesn't anyone care about me? I have no friends who are TRUE friends. Even my husband doesn't care. He's leaving for a six-week stay in Italy in a few months, and even though he knows I can't drive, he said I'm a big girl and I can figure this all out for myself. He doesn't care if I'm okay while he's gone. The people I work with don't want to give me rides; they're sick of it. My husband tells me I'm a burden; he'll sometimes make me wait at work while he finishes up a football game or an online poker game.
Truth be told, I don't feel like having friends anyway. I just want to be by myself. I feel... better that way. Most of the time.
I'm just so confused. I want someone to care. Even God is gone. Where did He go??? I haven't heard a thing from Him in over twelve years. What happened to the "come to me and I'll give you rest"?
I just don't get it! Where are the people I need to hold me up when I can't hold myself up? I can't find a single one. Not that it would help if I did. I have an almost phobic fear of opening up to people face-to-face, over even on the phone, which makes it stupid that I’m crying because no one cares. But I just don’t know what to do. I think that if I told my husband all this, he’d take it as a guilt trip. If I said I needed help, he wouldn’t want to drive me to the therapist.
*sigh*
I give up.
2006-11-12
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