I work in an Intensive psychiatric care unit. Our clients are more unwell and more aggressive than in other parts of the hospital.
I love my job, I am never off sick and have been there 6 years. I understand that working in this environment can be stressful and does pose a risk of being assaulted…But that does not bother me.
8 weeks ago, I was assaulted by a client. My optic nerve was damaged and I couldn’t see. As soon as I got the all clear from the eye clinic, I was straight onto my GP to get me back to work.
The client in question continues to verbalise thought of harming me. Basically he does not understand relationships and felt betrayed that I get on well with all the clients and staff in the ward. So that was the reason I got punched.
2 days before returning to work, the hospital managers decided that I couldn’t go back to work.
I would be working in another ward. A ward where I don’t know the staff, the clients, the routine or the layout. I don’t have a uniform and therefore, I look different.
I feel that I have to go back to MY ward as I have ghosts to put to bed, I need to know that I can do my job without feeling fear and anxiety or having to look over my shoulder all the time.
I don’t believe I can move on from this sitting in a strange ward.
In this new ward I feel deskilled as I have far less responsibility. I have a senior role and do a lot of management stuff. In this new ward, the manager does a lot of these tasks himself.
I also have to constantly defend myself as automatically people assume you have been removed from your ward for aggression towards a client or without knowing me the other staff say “Oh you’re the nurse who was hit!”
I have been in this other ward for 3 weeks now. The work is a doddle, the staff are nice and I have no problems there, but I’m not moving on from the assault. My mood has dipped, I come home from work and cry and I don’t sleep well and if I do, I dream about the assault and the client in question.
Now my dilemma is this….
I don’t want to go off sick as I feel that I’ve let the management get to me…(there are political reasons why they wont let me back into my ward that they wont admit to)
But recently I’ve felt I should go off sick as working in this other ward isn’t helping me.
I’ve never felt so stressed by the management and I know that if they said I could go back to MY ward, the stress would go.
What do you think?
2006-10-17
09:50:15
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