ive been depressed for as long as i can remember, & no1 has ever cared about how I felt. Me & my mom never get along & my sisters only think about her &say i should treat her better meanwhile she treats me like ****. Ive been feelin empty & dead & the sunlight that comes thro my window is the only thing that makes me feel alive. I cry myself to sleep & those tears let me know that i DO have feelings & their heartless. I cant even look in my moms eyes without gettin flashbacks of the times i was left aside like a doll she got tired of. My head never stops runnin, the echo's in my head just get louder, "ur stupid grow up stand still." lil does she know my bodys fallin apart. i feel so alone & i cry myself to sleep everynight wishin i dont wake up the next mornin. my b/f's there time to time but even him is startin to get tired of me always bein so depressed & angry, & i even feel like im pushin him aside, the best thing thats happened to me, cause he doesnt deserve this. i duno wat to do
2006-08-14
11:05:36
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Stephh
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Mental Health